Earlier this week, I felt abit jealous. But right now, I feel angry. It seems like I've been fooled or something. First of all, I don't understand why you must tell me about the date. Is it to spite me? Or is it just for fun or rather you feel obliged to tell me? I don't know. But that's still okay. It was okay until I found out you lied to me. Why did you? She never said yes. But you told me she did. Why? Cause I said I haven't been in contact with her for so long? So you thought that I won't find out? Perhaps you should know that we're damn close. We share almost everything with each other. And even if we don't talk to each other, or we always fight, we do update each other once in a while. So there's no escape. If lying to me wasn't enough, lying to her doesn't make it better. Since when was I busy? Did you even ask me? So now I'm not required to be there? If you can tell me about the date, why didn't you tell me you wanted to meet her? Cause it was last minute? Or cause you didn't want me to know? Or was it supposed to be private? If it was, asal bawak rombongan? Takot jumpe sorang2? Dah jumpe pastu buat hal sendiri. Pikir kelakar pe? Buang mase orang tau tk. I don't know what's your motive but all I have to say is that don't waste your time. You're not her type, seriously. You know I feel so ashamed right now. Cause you're my friend and I introduced you to her. And now, you're doing this. What if this matter is known by my family? People will say my friends are all tak betul. Because of you only, all my friends are being labelled as such. Is it fair? You tell me. Not only my friends, but I will be labelled as one who doesn't know how to choose friends. What the fuck. It's not even my fault. But they won't know. And I can't explain alone. At last, I'll suffer. It's like I have no other problems in my life and that I could manage some more. I'm on the verge of breaking down right now, not because of this cause you're not worth my tears, seriously. I have too many problems to handle, be it school, family, friends, myself and my lost love. So I'll appreciate it if you stop giving me problems. Even though you don't realise it. I wouldn't want our friendship to end just like that. I see you as a brother, so don't make me lose my trust for you. Think about it, dear. She's not interested in you.

I need psychological help.

it ended: 0231.

02 May 2009.

till next time.

mucho loves.

iifaa