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On Leave

i'm on MC today. for the first time this year. must i be proud of it? i don't know.
well, it wasn't planned actually. i was at the bustop when i thought of it.
i left home at 0815. was waiting for either 185 or 243. then i was like, damn i'm gonna be late again. so i decided to go to the polyclinic to get an MC. at the same time, 243 came. i was already late to take MRT, so whatever. then 185 came. i can't run for it, so again whatever.
crossed the road and waited for 99. slept and missed the stop. took another bus. only one bustop. lucky i had concession(: then, in the clinic, alot of people were sick. oh my.
some were even wearing masks. (infer: flu, sorethroat, fever) waited for god knows how long.
and that's just to register. waiting for the doctor is another chore.
when it was finally my turn, i told the doctor i had stomachache and that it happens everything. she told me that it was nothing. and that i just have to eat fruits and vegetables. she sounded as if i was making all that up. yes, i need an MC desperately but i didn't make up any stories to get it ok. i do experience stomachaches every morning. and it simply irritates me because whenever that happens, i'll be late for school. and if there is any relieve, i wouldn't mind. i would sit on the toilet bowl for 15minutes and still, nothing comes out. but when you want to get up, the pain comes again and makes you sit again. but still, nothing comes out. urgh.
and now i feel sick. as in flu. my throat doesn't feel good. my nose keep running. and my temperature rises from 36.7 to 37.0 to 37.3. (last taken: 2020)
god, please don't let me be sick. i can't be sick. i want to watch Paduka perform. i can't be sick.

this is driving me crazy. i think of it every now and then. i just want my phone to ring everyday and your photo pops out. that will seriously make my day(:

i still regret

it ended: 2034.
16 July 2009.
till next time.
mucho loves.
iifaa

Happy Regrets

hari ini aku happy tapi aku pun sedih jugak. korang nak tau kenapa? jom dengar cerita aku.
haha. tadi lepas maths class yang aku tak jadi nak cabot tu, aku check phone aku. ade satu miss call. aku kngat aifa, sekali bukan. kal rupenye. aku punya terperanjat berok, aku saja yang tahu. so aku call la balik.
L: eh you call?
K: ah.
L: asal?
K: oh nak tanya kat mana sebab tadi kt NP.
L: oh. ok. beh sekarang?
K: dah dalam bas nak balik.
L: alah ok la bye.
K: bye.
lepas tu aku sms dia.
L: eh you nak jumpe i pe?
K: ya. dah kat NP. ingat nak jumpe jap ke ape ke(:
kalau aku tau, aku cabot ah tadi. ish duduk dalam kelas pun tak produktif langsung.
(sila rujuk post yang sebelumnya untuk maklumat lanjut)
so sekarang aku happy campur menyesal. tapi apa kan daya takde rezeki nak jumpe. haha.
i'm too happy to translate. make do with what you have(:

just now Achik called me at home. "eh aku nak bilang kau something. kene guess."
L: err..pasal Mamu.
A: ah kenape?
L: err.. tak tau la.
A: guess la.
L: *ilham dah datang* Mamu dapat selected!
A: haha yes! dengan other family members pun. tapi Babuji kene fight with another guy for the last position.
congratulations to Mamu, Along & Uncle Apek. you go, boys! we'll support y'all aite. must make us proud! Babuji GO GO GO!
biar belajar jadi orang jangan jadi jembalang. jangan asyik membangkang.~

saya rindu awak la(:

it ended: 0105.
16 July 2009.
till next time.
mucho loves.
iifaa

Boredom

am in Maths lecture now. i didn't bring bring any notes today. i was too obsessed with remembering to bring laptop for GPO that i forgot about GPO tutorial and Maths notes.
without notes, i can't understand anything. despite having MeL, i can't even do self test cause i didn't pay attention to whatever he explained since the start.so i just slacked with my laptop.
facebooked, bloghopped, did lots of quizzes on fb, rocklegends-ing and Letting Go.
i hate small lectures. they just know who's here and who's not. damn it. Jingyan, Jamie & I wanted to skip class but decided not to. but we wanted to leave as soon as we signed our attendance and then changed our minds again since we've settled down with our laptops.
he's looking at me but i just don't care. he told us to lower our screen, i did then i raised it again.

missed Live Gig just now. i chose class over that since i've missed a couple of GPO lectures already. so i don't think i can afford to miss tutorial. i caught a glimpse of an unknown band playing. not Switched Out/TSTV.
i missed Switched Out! ): ): ): haha dah step #1 fan la pulak. azzrul, you should be honoured(:
yesterday, i said that i'll see you tomorrow. i'm sorry i lied. i just can't.

okay that's all folks. thanks to Jingyan, i'm craving for Subway cookie too. HAHA~

why didn't you respond?

it ended: 1635.
15 July 2009.
till next time.
mucho loves.
iifaa

Paluan Workshop

hey babes. i reached home as early as yesterday just now.
had Paluan Workshop(: with Mami and Achik. kekek la siol.
i hate my day just now. it was an unusual tuesday jam packed with lessons.
as you all already know, my tuesdays usually end at 11am and i'll be free after.
but today was exceptional due to the compulsory CBIO make up tutorial from 2 to 4pm.
and the first HS Delegates meeting at 6pm. but it's okay.
even so, i get to spend time and hang out with Mami & Achik. we wanted to lepak but ended up waiting for Achik to finish her assignment then watched Paduka training.
before that, we went for dinner. Li joined us. Achik blurted out my secret and now Li knows.
bagus la amalkan selalu ye Achik. checkcheck besok satu MCC tahu. part tu aku tau sape nk carik. time tu kau jangan nak sorok belakang Mamu eh. anak manje tak manje aku bedal jugak.

Paduka having their selection for competition just now. Mamu and Along is in the list! this means they have to shine in order to get selected to represent Paduka. go family members!
Uncle Apek is in too. Babuji, buck up man! we're rooting for you. btw comp is this sunday!
i can't wait to go. can see Afiq B, the one from Anugerah. haha. but whatever.

i missed Anugerah just now. ): but Chirul & Wawan got in! YAY!~
Chirul is so not Chico. korang mate strabismus pe sia. until now, some still don't know.

i saw you just now. but i didn't dare to look at you in the eye. my heart said: see you later. but you weren't there. i shall see you tomorrow, god willing(:

b, i tau asal you sakit. you rindu i kan. ok lol.
btw arini gaji keluar kan? bile icecream nak masuk? HAHA!

live gig or class, you choose

it ended: 0125.
15 July 2009.
till next time.
mucho loves.
iifaa

That Saturday Night

i forgot to add:
1. i reached home at 11+ just now
2. Uncle Apek trapped me and now knows about my biggest crush (sings CrushCrushCrush)
3. i can't watch Switched Out on wed cause i found out that their slot is at 2pm. i have class at 1-3pm. am thinking of taking MC but troublesome la.
4. fell in love with the Let You Go song by SO. will you sing it for me?
5. the world is contracting by the minute. almost everyone knows one another.
6. will be going to school alone tomorrow cause zul decided to skip class.
7. i can't collect my PW cert due to tomorrow's sudden pack schedule. i hope they won't call me.

ok enough of that. shall talk about what happened on saturday.
basically, i couldn't wake up. i kept waking up and sleeping again from 9am to 11+am.
i was supposed to meet Nadrah, Wanting & Kuntong kia at bugis at 1230pm.
but being the typical Latifah, i went out at 1230. met them close to 2. sorry guys.
discussed and sidetracked and laughed and cycle repeats.
at 4pm, we made a move from Mcd. Wanting & I rushed off. she meeting her friend at DG. i'm off to sembawang to meet cousins to visit Abg Azim. Kuntong & Nadrah lingered around.

and so, met Nurul, Fir & ScandaliciousBaby and off to Abg Azim's crib.
he's getting better. Alhamdulillah. he can't laugh so he has to control himself. i miss his high pitched laughter. imagine that at FarEast. omg paisey.
he was still working at LJS that time and i was with atin. then he laughed so loudly, almost everyone looked at him. and he didn't care about that.
and so we catched up on a few things. his siblings were out. so it was him and his mum.
next outing: NDP okay guys? :D

around 7pm, we left for Marsiling. nice tops on sale but no mummy=no money.
mummy was too lazy to come. wahlau eh. but still, i bought a shoe. like MaryJanes.
you must be saying: no money still can buy shoe. it's ONE freaking DOLLAR la sey.
serious shit tak bedek. shall wear it later to school. haha.

dinner of Seafood Fried Rice was okay. it's more like Frozen Veges + Fishcake&Mini Crabmeat.
nurul/wak lah treated us. thanks!

then we went home. separated from Iman & Apit at the bustop. then separated from Nurul, Fir, Faiz, Wak Lah & Nyai at the interchange. took MRT home since daddy didn't fetch me.
was still frightened by the incident on the bus. went home alone safely. i wish i have a boyfriend to send me home whenever i want him to.

shall tell y'all the story of the drunkard in 903 next time. maybe tomorrow?

i would love to be in your armsn now, b

it ended: 0340.
14 July 2009.
till next time.
mucho loves.
iifaa

Mami Tanjung Family

i don't know if i want to sleep tonight. i just have to finish CQ.
but i'm not doing it. i FBed, bloghopped, MOL-ed my time away.
now finally blogging. shall blog about just now first.

okay so Adiratna training was cancelled. due to unknown reasons. still we had our lepak session at the clubhouse, Aifa, Hanis & I. met Aifa at Makan Place for early dinner. off to clubhouse.
waited for Hanis, dinner at Pines. she fed us HorFun. Milo Dinosaur! thanks babe. i owe you $1.
while eating, we suddenly had this idea of starting a family. no, i don't mean giving birth.
we formed our own family called the Mami Tanjung Family consisting of:
Hanis - Maminis
Azan - Mamuzan
Iskee - Alongisk
Ifa - Angahlatt
Aifa - Achikfaa

then lepaked at clubhouse wait for Paduka to end training. wait for Mamu & Along to surprise them with our idea. kekek siol. then we added new family members:
Nigel - Uncle Apek (neighbour)
Isa - Babuji (Mami's brother)
aku tahan kencing dari sekolah sampai boonlay checkcheck toilet dah tutup ccb.
ternampak klon taufik(: tapi dah tak cute macam dulu. hatiku tetap padamu, A.

bus ride home was fun with Uncle Apek and Mami. when they alighted, it was boring cause Mamu always manjekan Achik. binget sey. anak tengah selalu kene tolak tepi. benci ah.

oh ya, discussed alot about the upcoming party. i'm like super duper excited cause Aifa put me in charge but i'm scared i can't go. cause you know my dad. one day he's ok with anything, then suddenly he's super strict. i really pray hard that i can go. gonna be fun in the moonlight yeah.

ok so i think that's all for today. next will be about saturday(:
oh ya clubhouse shifting this wednesday. to where? i don't know. no more sleep before training ):

how do i tell you that i love you

it ended: 0257.
14 July 2009.
till next time.
mucho loves.
iifaa

Mini Live Earth

for the record, i reached home at 2340 just now.
significant yet i-don't-know-what-to-say time. oh well.

late lunch with Aifa, Azan & Hanis was fun. i love you guys.
and i don't steal people's boyfriend okay. never did, never will.
Aifa& Azan, please eh stop it eh. aku pening tau.

Mini Live Earth was okay. the video was omg, too cute to be informative.
the bands were okay. it wasn't their fault. the equipments just disappointed them.
Fakefish: irritating Famous guy with nice voice. disappointed vocalist having a damn bad day. rilek brother.
LFT: quite okay for a 1st gig. GO MCC!
Those The Brokes: cool voice, vocalist. reminded me of Hujan. cute drummer but taken. whatever.
Switched Out: gerekkkkk. was the bomb. made my night. ended the event with a good impression. i stoned during the 2nd song. lirik menusuk beb. i am heartbroken, oh well. will see you guys again on the 15th(:

but I’m letting you go
I’m moving on
But I can’t take this anymore
Cause I love you so
That’s why I had to let you go
Eventhough I love you so
I had to let you go
Letting you go

my eyes were on you, yes you. i fell in love with you, yes you.
is it called love? tell me you feel the same way and it's love(:
i miss you like mother cow.
and i love you, atin, for coming just now. we'll dance in the bus again ok.

will still hold on no matter what

it ended: 0243.
11 July 2009.
till next time.
mucho loves.
iifaa

Maths Class

in class right now. realised that i've been abandoning this blog.
been very busy. actually not that busy. but still no time to update.
oh nevermind. i'm sure you don't mind :D

am so not paying attention in Maths right now. didn't even bring notes.
too heavy la. laptop for MOL is enough. now waiting for revision to be activated.
then off to Mini Live Earth @NP. i'm still searching for someone to fill in for Iris.
zul, please help me. you can meet amir tomorrow. pleaseplease.
and atin, i'm sorry to disrupt your plans but i really don't want to go alone.
and you know that i can only count on you. haha.
to aifa, take care babe. i know i can count on you another time. yeah!
is your new colour okay, baby? :D

tuesdays are my Ditched Day

it ended: 1545.
10 July 2009.
till next time.
mucho loves.
iifaa

Cute Quote

"It hurts to know that you'll never remember the things all never forget."

You hate the feeling of your ex forgetting about you. You still remember all your precious moments together that will never leave. You know it's time to move on but a part of you still wants to hang.

i took this quiz on facebook called "What's your cute quote?" and the answer is above. seriously not cute at all okay. maybe the person's definition of cute is different from mine, that's why. haha.

i've been very lazy to update. oh btw i got 83/100 for Maths and i'm not really happy with it. don't say i action okay. jamie won me by 2 marks. no fair man. haha. i managed to win her and someone for all papers but not for beloved Maths. wahlauey. hahaha. need to study for OANP retest. sheesh no time.

am having a massive stomachache right now. the shit just won't come out. urgh.

i want icecream! :D

it ended: 0223.
07 July 2009.
till next time.
mucho loves.
iifaa

You Are Right

oh so you read my blog? oh i'm so honoured. oh thank you very much.
yes, my post are damn obvious, so what?
yes, it's meant to hurt you. so what?
yes, my assumptions are wrong. so what?
i just don't care. i have the right to say it. as long as i don't reveal your name.
and please don't beat around the bush. say it straight to the point honestly.
admit what you did. i don't care if i sidetracked or terkeluar ring. it's my blog, my wish.
well, let's just end this. cause i don't wanna be reminded anymore.
he's not mine, take him if you want to.

love doesn't bring you anywhere

it ended: 0047.
03 July 2009.
till next time.
mucho loves.
iifaa

Intercourse Chat

123th post! today i come with good news. may the force be with me.
I PASSED ALL MY CT except OANP!
although we haven't received our MATH results yet, i'm very confident that i passed, because:
1. i'm very good in maths (action sia)
2. maths is my only hope in life.
3. i didn't receive any call during the holidays :D
and my results are as follows:
GANP: 27/50 54%
OANP: 19/50 38%
GPO: 31/50 62%
CBIO: 35/50 70%
will get math tomorrow. can't wait! btw, i'm retaking OANP. shall study hard, not smart. :D

i got excited handling the reproductive system models during GANP practical just now.
some people were touching/smacking the butts. i said, "this one better" and started caressing the penis as if i'm you-know-what. they were like, "OMG!" haha.
then when we exchanged models to the female's, we finished identifying and were sitting and talking and reading the chart. i was talking to jamie and suddenly my itchy hands went touching around. i didn't realise it until i looked at where my hands were fiddling.
my finger was touching the inside of the vagina. i won't say it's nice to touch but there's line patterns so it's not smooth and you just don't realise touching it. haha.
well, you have to feel it to know how i feel. haha. i just found out that i don't have a hymen!
"if your hymen breaks, you're not a virgin" BULLSHIT!
your hymen breaks the moment you have menses. so if there's no bloodshed during your sexual intercourse, don't worry, it's normal. tell your mums/aunts/grandmas/grandaunts etc that.

imagine during intercourse, you say the following:
"oh your penis is penetrating through your vagina"
"your testes are producing sperm. it's stored in the epididymis then move along the sperm duct"
"are you coming already? oh the semen is moving through your urethra. oh it's in my vagina. yes, they're swimming up my cervix"
i don't think you will reach until there. in the middle of your explanation, he might just get turned off and walk away, leaving you high, alone. haha.
well people, don't get disgusted. i have to study this and at least i know how my system works(:
I WANNA MAKE LOVE RIGHT NOW NA NA!~ with you(:

would you surprise me with an icecream cone like in Malacca?

it ended: 0005.
03 July 2009.
till next time.
mucho loves.
iifaa

Gabriella Hana

hello kids. my blog suddenly became popular today.
i found out that alot of my classmates read my blog.
especially the Dumped post. according to ex-BB, "of course la, it's about me what, of course people want to read la" eh don't act cute ok.
btw yesterday was a very rough day for me. after getting ditched, i watched Click with nadrah in the library. then aifa asked me out to dinner with azan. thanks guys for making my day.
except for the couple things you guys do. haha. please eh stop it eh.
then my mood went down at night due to several reasons. and i think i cried to sleep.
i forgot. haha. i think i love crying. adam hazrin has been my crying partner for over three years now. and he has never made me sad. i love you adam hazrin!
i shall name my son after you, and call him adam or ayin or arin. HAHA!

btw i met this UK tourist with a damn gorgeous daughter at SBG on sunday. she's only 5 i think.
guess her name: Gabriella. i was like, "where's troy?" lol.
seeing how beautiful she looked with those goldilocks curls and blue eyes, a thought suddenly came into my mind.
"i wanna name my daughter after her. Gabriella Hana. maybe she's be as gorgeous."
the Hana just came out naturally. i didn't even think about it.
the rest was like, "nonsense." oh nevermind. we'll see when the time comes(:

i sat in front of Waffletown at lunch just now. i craved for icecream again but i controlled cause:
1. i told myself to wait for you.
2. you wanted to treat me.
3. alex said waffletown icecream sucks. (actually he didn't say sucks but it's the easiest word)

i need my icecream badly

it ended: 0124.
02 July 2009.
till next time.
mucho loves.
iifaa